As a man, and as a therapist helping people with a wide variety of life challenges, and often serious, life-threatening challenges, I have always wanted to have the best guidance, and to be capable of offering it. It was that quest the led me to a life of deep study and practice of many paths, approaches, and tools. It was my personal struggles with the irreconcilables of religion, and the prevalence of such pain in the many lives I was involved with as a therapist and holistic lifestyle coach that inspired me to seek answers to my deepest questions, and those of others in my life. The result, long ago now, was that I made conscious contact with my own soul.
The initial contact with my soul was a revelation, and began a deep, honest relationship that continues to fill my life with meaning—and will carry me safely through my own death. The challenge for me, as for many, is that I could only communicate through the energy-messages my soul gave me, for I had not yet developed or learned the language of the soul; I needed a more expansive language that simple ‘yes’ and ‘no” answers. It was my deep, committed study of wise, spiritually intact teachers, such as Joseph Campbell, Carl Jung, Angeles Arrien, shaman-mystic Rowena Kryder, and others whose teachings kept referencing and extrapolating on the Tarot that ultimately led me past the intellectual study and exploration of Tarot into a committed practice of Tarot.
I made the transition from studying the Tarot and occasional use for divination to using the Tarot archetypes as a language for direct, more expansive, and comprehensive communication with my soul 11 years ago, when I turned fifty. On my fiftieth birthday, I was hit like a tidal wave with the pain, sadness, and emptiness of a midlife crisis. I had so overly identified myself by what I could do to help others, and had expended myself so fully doing just that, that I simply had nothing to give others any longer. It was a challenging, scary, lonely time in my life.
The first thing I did was cut back my work schedule to I had more time each day, and each week to be with myself so I could engage deeper dialogue with my soul. This led me to studying and spending the next eighteen months practicing the Egyptian system of Tarot, and doing the daily practices of active imagination, meditation, asking questions, and getting answers through the Tarot, and recording my practices, experiences, dialogues, questions, and answers in a series of journals, which is now a very comprehensive treasure I continue to expand.